marilynnotmonroe

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Marilyn (definitely not Monroe)

Dear tumblr,

I'm definitely not ready to star tour again. I mean, it's already started, and I'm still not ready. I feel like I need another day. To pack, to say goodbye, to drink myself into a stupor and call the infamous ex... I need something more definitive before I can start. This tour is different by far. The band's changed; I've changed. It's hard to put into words.

On another note, I need to stop purging. I mean, it's gross, right? But whenever I try to stop I can't keep anything down, or if I can I just cut more. Do you know how hard it is to hide the scars and fat in that skank uniform I wear on stage? Fucking hell. On top of that I can't sleep. I've been robbed of any normal human functions... sleeping, eating, anything. Babies function better than I do.

Anyway, I think shit's going to maybe get better. Tour is normally good. And if it doesn't... at least every night's a party, right? Well, adios. I've got to buy cigarettes/practice guitar/write a new song/call the ex/stop wasting time...[/font]

With(out) love,

Marilyn Josie